I have no support system. I have nobody to talk to, nobody to confide in. There is nobody to go to when I want to vent, or when I need help with my problems. So what do I do??? I just talk to myself...
You know my story. I'm not close to anyone. The situation with not knowing my father, and how I held a grudge against my mother for it. Not growing up with any brothers or sisters, and not having any other family I could talk to. I have a lot of acquaintances, but only 3 real friends. Two of them are in prison. When me and the other friend speak, he does most of the talking, and it usually about sports. We do have other conversations about life, but not my life, and not my issues specifically.
So here I am, same as it has always been. It's just me. I'm just a man, trying to figure out things all on my own... all as I go. I can count the amount of people I have truly opened up to on my thumbs, and those relationships are all but over. I just don't feel comfortable with just anyone knowing my thoughts and problems. So if I handle a situation poorly, or make a bad decision, I apologize. I am trying... but I am a work in progress. Through it all please remember... it's just me.
Ok that's all for now... thank you for visiting and stay tuned...
You know my story. I'm not close to anyone. The situation with not knowing my father, and how I held a grudge against my mother for it. Not growing up with any brothers or sisters, and not having any other family I could talk to. I have a lot of acquaintances, but only 3 real friends. Two of them are in prison. When me and the other friend speak, he does most of the talking, and it usually about sports. We do have other conversations about life, but not my life, and not my issues specifically.
So here I am, same as it has always been. It's just me. I'm just a man, trying to figure out things all on my own... all as I go. I can count the amount of people I have truly opened up to on my thumbs, and those relationships are all but over. I just don't feel comfortable with just anyone knowing my thoughts and problems. So if I handle a situation poorly, or make a bad decision, I apologize. I am trying... but I am a work in progress. Through it all please remember... it's just me.
Ok that's all for now... thank you for visiting and stay tuned...
You sound sad. It's ok to be just you, but I know it can be lonely sometimes.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, nobody has it all together, no matter how well they put on a front.
You do need to find a passion, and maybe blogging is it. Use us fellow bloggers as your outlet.
Perhaps some of the anonyminity will help you open up and get some relief and creative ideas to solve your problems.
wow this post sounded exactly like me and something that I would write. Actually I have written stuff very similar to this. I feel the same way you do about not having anyone to turn to when I need help. I also grew up with no other siblings. I don't have anything to say right now that could make you feel any better because I'm still struggling with the same things you are. I'm sorry, but just know you're not alone.
ReplyDeleteHmmmmmm... looking forward to hearing more of your thoughts :)
ReplyDeleteWhat you do have going for you
ReplyDeleteK. is honesty and a deep strength. We all misjudge what
we think we should say or do
through-out our lives.
Keep meditating, keep sharing
and you will find that like
minded, positive thinking people
will show up in your life.