Damn...

Yesterday was the first day of tryouts for the William Allen High School basketball program. It was also the first time in 4 years that I was not in attendance. After a tough decision making process, I have decided that the best thing for me and my family is that I not coach basketball this season.

It was one of the hardest decisions that I have ever had to make. I love coaching, I love the kids, and I love seeing the positive progression of a young man caused by my influence. At this point in my life though, I feel like I cannot balance the time commitment it takes to coach with the time commitment it takes to be an effective father. My son got his report card last week, and he failed two classes. He needs my undivided attention. I have to take care of home before I can try to help others.

I talked to coach Smurda and he assured me that he and the rest of the staff understand and support my decision. I still feel bad because even though I know I'm doing the right thing for my family, I know my work isn't done with the kids. I still plan on being at all of the games as well as
participating in the mentoring program, but it won't be the same as being there everyday.

Hopefully there will be a day I will be able to rejoin the staff, but for right now this is just how things have to be. Damn.

Ok that's all for now... thank you for visiting and stay tuned...